Well, this is it! Whole 30! Day 30!

As I sit down to type this, I am eating lunch on my very last day of Whole 30! A chicken breast, a sweet potato, some bell pepper slices, and grapes. 

The last 30 days have been amazing. Yes, I've struggled. Yes, I've wanted to quit. No, I didn't always want to follow the rules. Yes, I'm sick of salad. But, I made a goal, and I stuck with it to the end in an area of life that I've never felt in complete control of.  And of that I'm proud. My energy levels are soaring, I'm fitting into pants I haven't worn in a long time, my skin is clear, my head is clear, working out is easier, workout recovery is faster, and I feel healthier in general. Twice in the last two weeks I've been called a health nut, and I liked it!

I have such a confused head and heart about what tomorrow and the days after hold. I want all the things I haven't been eating for the last 30 days. But, I am terrified of them at the same time! I'm scared I'll fall right back into bad patterns (and fat pants). I'm scared eating them will make me feel sick. I'm scared of losing control. But, I do not want to stay this crazy strict, either. Must. Find. Balance. 

Tomorrow will go something like this:

  1.  Weigh myself!

  2.  Drink coffee with cream and sugar!!

  3.  I'm not sure about lunch... I need to think about that

  4.  Lou Malnati's pizza for dinner with a brownie for dessert!

I'm sure I'll regret it all. But, it's just one day.