Controlling Self

I start many days with the goal of being in control - of myself. This is the theme of my 2012. The theme of the rest of my life.
  In control of my eating habits.
  In control of my emotional responses.
  In control of my thoughts.
  In control of my words.
  In control of my time management.
  In control of my "stuff."
     And many days I fail miserably.
But, I used to live my life trying desperately to control everything and everyone around me lest they get swept out of my grasp and beyond my reach where I could not make sure that all was as it should be. Those days I always failed. I have come to realize that the only "thing" I can really control is myself. And even that is not so easy.

Today, I woke at 5:10am after hitting the snooze button only once.
 I brushed my teeth, donned my favorite workout clothes, and headed downstairs for a morning workout. (This one is my favorite: Look Better Naked DVD)

Then, I spent 45 whole minutes in quiet time with God. This is not something I do often enough. I prayed, journaled, read, and listened. It put me in a great mood. When I woke Jerry up, he asked where I got so much energy. Coffee with God does that to me.

I got to work earlier than normal. Had an incredibly productive, albeit hectic day. I did not allow myself to buy into office negativity. I did not allow myself to get sucked into time wasters. I did, however, allow myself to get too engrossed in my projects and work eleven hours straight. Sigh. I also allowed myself to eat four miniature chocolates from generous coworkers and 4 little cookies from a cookie tin. But, I did stick with the steamed broccoli and baked potato lunch that I brought from home, even though I ate it while preparing monthly trends reports.

When I got home, I was greeted by Husband who was eager to show me the treadmill he brought home for me from his brother's house. I've been wanting a treadmill for a long time. And now, I have one -  and even better, it was free! Thank you Andy and Jenni! I ran upstairs put my workout clothes back on and ran a mile. Er, jogged is probably a more accurate description.

Then I had the greasiest veggie pizza ever from Rosati's... a lot of it. Jerry tried to convince me it was ok because the spinach, green peppers, and onions are healthy. But, I know better.

As I close this day, I will choose to remember it for the good things - the things I did manage to keep under control. I will not dwell on the negative, the things I let get away from me.

Tomorrow is another day.